My name is James McNulty. I was born and raised in Longmont, Colorado until I was 17 years old and then I moved
to Florida. I started using drugs when I was 13, but I managed to get really good grades and I graduated high school
when I was 17. I went to college, but I didn’t finish and get a degree. I was “managing” my drug use until I was 22 and then
I really went off the deep end, or jumped over the cliff, whichever way you want to say it, I was a mess. Drugs, partying,
women and cars were my life. I always had good jobs and I never went without, even if I had to hold down three jobs at the same time, but it was never enough. This went on until I was 27 years old. I was desperate for a change and I went to Mission Teens in Florida. This was in 2006. I had known of the Lord, but I had never taken the time to get a personal relationship with him. Looking back, I realize that even though I was asking for help, I wasn’t really ready to receive it. I did complete the program, but I got in a lot of trouble and didn’t really take the opportunity as seriously as I should have. I tried to good on my own, but I ended up getting in a mess again. I re-entered the Florida mission in 2010 and completed again, but this time I stayed on for staff training. I transferred to the mission in Alabama in 2011. I completed staff training and left. I was really doing well this time and for a couple of years, I had my life together. Then I let the enemy creep in again. I came back to the mission for the third time. It is very humbling to have to start over for the 3rd time, but this time it is different. I realize the miracle that I am. I realize the miracle of God’s grace on my life. I realize what a miracle it is to be given a third chance to come to a place to get to know the Lord more. I finally realize that I cannot run from God or the calling He has put on my life to serve Him. I heard the call for people to come help pioneer in Missouri and I know that God was speaking to my heart to transfer and help. I have been here for a couple of months and I am seeing God move daily. We are all working together to get the projects complete so we can start helping others. I am right where God wants me and I realize that I am finally in His will for my life. My favorite scripture is Psalm 56:11-13 “In God I have put my trust, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? Vows made to You are binding upon me, O God; I will render praises to You. For you have delivered my soul from death. Have You not kept my feet from falling, That I may walk before God In the light of living?
My name is Michael Steward. I was raised in California by an amazing single mother, Kathy Dixon who is married to an amazing Christian husband, Richard Dixon. I had everything I needed as a child and most of what I wanted. My life was really good until I started smoking pot my senior year of high school. I went off to college and kept smoking pot instead of fulfilling my responsibilities. I soon found myself transporting drugs from California to the school I was “sort of” attending in Oklahoma. I allowed myself to be a tool used to ruin a lot of peoples’ lives by selling them meth. I got into some trouble and went on the run. I blamed all of my problems on the fact that I had never known my Earthly father. I met him and a couple of years later I started doing the same old things. After many years of this bad cycle, I realized that not knowing my Earthly father wasn’t really the problem; the real problem was that I didn’t know my Heavenly Father. I am happy to say that I do know Him now and He has fulfilled everything I was lacking in my life and then some. God answered my biggest prayer, that my mother would be saved. Praise the Lord!! God has given me the vision of being a life-long missionary so I am serving Him as a staff member at Freedom House. I said “Here I am Lord, send me” and he moved me to Holcomb, MO. Romans 11:29 “For God’s gifts and His call are irrevocable.” Matthew 6:21 “For where your treasure is, there your heart is.”
My name is Clair Florence. I am 58 years old. I was born and raised on a farm in central Illinois. I was raised in church and received Jesus at the age of 9, but as time went on, I didn’t act as if I was saved. I have always had issues with self-esteem, shame and guilt. I began drinking in high school and by the time I was in college, I was experimenting with all kinds of drugs. I got married in 1979 and a few years later we had two wonderful children, a boy and a girl. It was one of the best times in my life. We were active in our church and I wasn’t doing drugs anymore.
Slowly though, I began to drink again and I drifted away from God. I still felt shame and guilt and felt even more guilt because I knew I was far from God and I was hiding a dark secret. Over the years, I became very depresses and anxious. I started taking pain pills because they made me feel better, but only for a short time. I then reached a point where deep darkness surrounded me. I felt so worthless I just wanted to die. I had lost my job and hurt my family very deeply; especially my husband. The enemy had stolen everything from me. But I began to cry out desperately to God. One of my favorite scriptures is Psalm 34:18 “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” I knew that if God didn’t save me soon, I was going to die.
So I called my brother Andy who was at a Mission Teens center in Marked Tree, Arkansas. He told me that I needed to go to a mission. He said to call Freedom House in Holcomb, Missouri so I did. And I have been here for 6 months. Shortly after arriving, I felt such a sense of peace. I realized that I always thought I had a relationship with Jesus, but I didn’t. Not like I do now. He’s shown me that He loves me more than I could possibly imagine. I’ve learned to forgive myself and to accept myself the way God does. I am so thankful to Mission Teens for giving me a chance to get closer to God and learn more about Jesus. I’m looking forward to my future now and no matter what I do, I just want to serve the Lord. I don’t want to go back to the darkness, I just want to keep seeking the Light. I finally have hope instead of despair. Isaiah 40:31 “But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not be faint.”
My name is Melissa Jones. I am 46 years old. My life has never been what some call “normal”. My dad was in prison until I was around 12 years old. Then when he came home, he was a drug dealer which was my introduction to cocaine, meth, marijuana and even the needle. By the time I was 15, I was injecting cocaine and meth daily and had dropped out of school. My dad ended up back in prison which left me with my mom who basically could not control me. I ran wild and lived life in the fast lane. By the time I was 18; I had 2 children out of wedlock and was married to a man who had recently been released from prison. I was also addicted to prescription drugs along with the street drugs. At this point, my life consisted of sex, drugs, rock and roll and men. I left my children in my mom and grandma’s care all the time so I could do what I wanted. When I was 25, I had divorced my first husband and married the 2nd guy who was straight out of prison. It was an abusive relationship, leaving me in the ICU twice and eventually we got divorced. By this time, I have to honestly say I can’t really remember anything. At the age of 34, I entered Mission Teens in Jerseyville, IL. It was a whole new life and lifestyle for me and most days I loved it. I received Jesus Christ as my Savior and through the Word of God and the program I learned how to genuinely love others as Christ loves us. I stayed 2 years and left basically to try to build a life of my own. As I set up “my own kingdom”, I met another man and remarried. Before I knew it, in a year’s time, I was doctor shopping and was right back where I started from. This time my addiction and depression was worse than ever. For seven years I tried to numb the conviction I felt from the Holy Spirit, knowing that Jesus was the only answer. This exact time last year I began to wholeheartedly cry out to God asking Him to just take my life. As the months rolled on, I prayed every day “Jesus just take the wheel”. In June of this year, I had took an overdose of prescription meds and ended up in the ICU for the 3rd time this year. I surrendered then and there. I called Freedom House the doors flew open for me. (He made all the crooked paths straight) Since I have been back in the ministry, Jesus had delivered me from years of depression along with my addiction. He has given me peace that surpasses all understanding. Today I have joy in my heart. Today I strive to set up God’s kingdom and help others who struggle with life like I have. Today I just want to be the person Jesus wants me to be. Thank you and God bless. “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”- Galatians 6:9
Hello, my name is Derrick Mitchell. I’m 39 years old from Dexter, Missouri. I was raised by my mother, Joan. She worked most of the time to provide me and my sisters with everything we needed and with the things we wanted. I was a really busy kid and I remember thinking that you needed money to get anywhere in life. My grandma used to take me to church, but the only thing I really remember is the play where the Roman soldiers beat up Jesus. I was never taught to rely on Jesus, but I was taught to rely on myself and my own strength to survive. I started smoking pot, eating mushrooms and dropping LSD at age 13. I spent a lot of time going to concerts and music festivals and basically doing whatever I wanted to do. I thought I was living the good life. Everything progressed and by the age of 18 I was using meth. I got married and had a son, Triston. I loved him so much, but not enough to stop what I was doing. We separated, and I got a place with a couple of guys and we started cooking meth. It was us against the law. The drugs, money and women felt empowering to me at such a young age. I had a really bad reputation and I felt like I had to live up to it. Being good just wasn’t in the plans. I went to prison and rehabs over and over. Nothing could put me on the straight path. I accepted the lie that this was just how life was and this is just how I am. I always made decisions based on sex and drugs. I always wanted to feel good. If women couldn’t do it, then drugs would. But I never felt content. I was truly my worst enemy. I eventually met a girl and started going to AA meetings. I stayed sober for 8 years. One bad decision led me right back into the hell I hated. In an instant, I lost everything I had worked so hard for. I fell into a deep depression. Shame and guilt reared its ugly head and reminded me of who I really was and that if AA wasn’t helping someone like me then I was just hopeless and helpless. But God had his hand on me and had taken me through so many things all my life, but I was so blind and couldn’t see anything but the struggle. I wanted to die. I asked Him to just let me die. He had a different plan, he sent the County Sheriff’s department to rescue me. God loved me so much that he intervened and stopped me from hurting myself anymore. He showed Himself real to me and has been softening my heart ever since the day I called upon Him. I have always tried to get the right mixture of drugs, money and women to feel good in my own skin. But His love is my fulfillment! The rest is counterfeit. Since I came here to the Freedom House my eyes have been opened to see the spiritual battle I have been in. I have been trying to fight this spiritual battle with carnal tools and that will never work. I have always said I’m gonna do better “tomorrow” but tomorrow never came. Today I can say that I am living each day for Him to the fullest. Jesus overcame death and the grave and I have the victory through Him! So today I stay spiritually fed and can overcome this fleshly war. My stand on scripture is Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the thoughts I think toward you, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a hope and a future.” I have a future today - I have hope today. I love Freedom House!
My name is Stacy Jane Bannon. I am 45 years old. I am a native Texan. I came from a broken home and extremely dysfunctional childhood. As difficult as it was, I know my parents did the best they could. I came to know the Lord and Jesus at a very young age, attending vacation Bible school, regular church services and church youth camps. However, I began at a very young age feeling lonely, empty and confused seeking out anything to change the way I felt. I went to my first secular rehab at the age of 14 and have been in and out of rehabs every since. I have periods of sobriety throughout my whole life seeking recovery through several 12 step programs. I have also had several careers in my life that served me well, however, nothing can compare to the divine purpose and calling GOD has on my life. The Bible refers to the number 7 being the number of completion. Well, Freedom House is the 7th “rehab” I have been to within 7 years and I have been charged with 7 DWI’s (with convictions) yet I am not a felon nor have I ever served time in prison. God has been faithful and just even when I wasn’t. He has been waiting for me my whole life. He has healed me from my addictions, anxieties and depression. The Lord told me when I arrived here He needed me to stay until He said it was time for me to go. This word from the Lord came too soon for me to receive it. I graduated the program on February 23rd and have decided to stay here for staff training. So, as I continue to embellish on my walk with Jesus, seeking the Lord in all I do. I am happy to say that I will be serving Him at Freedom House. I have found His purpose for my life. Praise the Lord!! Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”
My name is Dezirae Starcher. I’m 27 years old, I’m from Akron, OH. I accepted Jesus in my heart when I was in 2nd grade while attending
a Christian school but I never had a relationship with Jesus. When I was 12 years old I started dating this boy who was an alcoholic. I
made him my god. I moved in with him when I was 16 years old. I quickly knew it was a mistake, but my pride wouldn’t allow me to admit
that, so for 12 years I put up with emotional, physical and mental abuse. I finally got away from that, but when I did, I was almost broken
beyond repair. I had no confidence and I was taking pain medicine that I was prescribed. I thrived on working hard and taking care of
everybody except myself. I t was easier not to look at myself by focusing on others. My drug use escalated and by 2012 I was an IV user. I was using heroin mainly, but I also started drinking and using meth and really anything I could get my hands on. I lost my job in 2012and my life felt meaningless. My depression got worse and I overdosed 18 times, got in 9 car accidents and 2 motorcycle accidents. I never broke a bone and always woke up in the hospital after overdosing at the time I thought that it was luck, but now I know the Lord had a plan for my life and He says He will never leave me or forsake me and He never did. (Heb. 13:5). In March of 2017 I finally got tired of running, stealing, selling myself, being homeless and hating my life. I knew I needed to change. I went to Mission Teens in Kentucky. When I got there, I was 86 lbs., spiritually, emotionally and almost physically dead. After a week, the Lord started slowly bringing me back to life. The scabs on my arms disappeared, the light started to push the darkness out of my heart. He filled me up with joy, love, peace and hope. For the first time in my life I felt like I belonged. I knew I had a purpose in life. I wanted to live. In September I transferred to Freedom House. I have never felt the love of Jesus like this in my life. I’m so thankful to the Lord for loving me enough to not give up on me.
I’m now in the staff training program at Freedom House and Jesus is using me to help lead others. Jesus is amazingly more than anything I can ever dream or imagine. I’m not worthy but He loved me enough to pull me out of my pit and gave me the honor of using me to help others get out of theirs by showing them to build that relationship with Him. Jesus is the only way, the truth and the life, (John 14:6). If anyone who is reading this needs help; cry out to the Lord, surrender your life to Him and call one of the 19 Mission Teens centers. You can’t do it alone. Jesus is the only answer and this program helps you to work on building a personal relationship with Jesus in a safe environment with a big family who loves you and will help you. Jesus who is the ONLY one that can fill the empty space in your heart that we try to fill with everything but Him. Jesus loves you no matter what. James 5:15 “And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned he will be forgiven.” If your family member or friend needs help keep praying and never lose faith in the Lord- it’s someone else’s prayers that helped me get to the point of surrender.
Hi, my name is Robbie Ingram. I’m 31 years old and I’m from Dexter, Missouri. I was born in South St. Louis, but when I was 3 years old,
my dad went to prison and my parents got divorced. My mom decided to move me and my 3 sisters and 2 brothers to Dexter and be near
my grandparents. My mom worked a lot to support all of us, but her heart was always with us. I can remember going to church as a child.
I loved learning about Jesus and singing the kids songs, but what I likedmost was going to McDonalds for a happy meal after church. I
guess looking back, my problems started at a very early age as I was only going to church for the happy meal. My mother got remarried to my step dad and we moved to his place in Tennessee. He turned out to be verbally and physically abusive to all of us. When I graduated highschool I moved back to Missouri, leaving behind my mother and my youngest sister and brother. I was so bitter at my step dad, I began to despise ALL men. I got news that my real father had been released from prison, so I decided to try to find him. After contacting him, I decided to move to Detroit to spend time with him. He was, and still is, an alcoholic and drug addict. I moved in with him and his girlfriend. She became very jealous of me and my father’s relationship and demanded that my father choose between us, so I decided to move back to Missouri. I left bitter towards her and began to also despise ALL women too. A short time later, I received a horrible phone call from my step-father. My youngest brother had hung himself and my mother found him dead in the barn. I went to the funeral and left a different person. I despised EVERYONE. I shut down and lost my wife and son in the process. I tried several times to kill myself and nothing would work. One night I cried out to Jesus to save me from these demons. I told him that I didn’t want to be depressed anymore. I admitted myself to a psych ward because I had fear that I was going to hurt myself. While I was there, they told me about Freedom House. When I got here, I felt accepted and loved before I even got out of the car. I’ve been here 7 months now. I have learned how to love myself and love others like Jesus does. Jesus took my depression and turned it into confession, He took my isolation and surrounded me with people who love me, He is teaching me how to live the right way-for Him. I am no longer a slave to fear. He is breaking chains off of me daily. John 15:4 says “Abide in me and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me.” I am so thankful for this new life that Jesus has given me, raising me up to be a soldier for Him.
My name is Kandy Riggs. I am 49 years old from Sebree, Kentucky. I am the 8th of 10 children. When I was growing up, my father was an abusive alcoholic who shot at and stabbed us kids. I have been married for 30 years and we have 2 children and 2 grandchildren. I didn’t have my last child until I was 35 years old and I had to have several surgeries as a result. The surgeries resulted in pain medications which I became addicted to. I would stop for periods of time, but I would always end up getting back on the pain meds. I also got hooked on nerve medications for my anxiety and depression and ended up trying to commit suicide. I got put in jail in 2017 and finally cried out to Jesus to take my depression away. He heard my cry and opened the door for me to come to Freedom House. Praise the Lord. Since I have been here, He has delivered me from my depression and pill addiction by healing all of the hurts I was holding on to. I have since forgiven all of the people who hurt me as a child. He has replaced my hurts with Joy. I can honestly say that even though I went to church, I have learned more about Jesus and the Bible since I have come here, than I knew my whole life. My favorite scripture is John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that he gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life.” I have that burned in my heart to witness to others when I complete the program and return home.
My name is Earl Gyger and I’m 42 years old from Forsyth, MO. My childhood was great, but at the age of 14, I was introduced to “crank”, which is now known as crystal methamphetamine. That choice I made back then led to an emotional roller coaster of bad relationships and a very dark and ugly lifestyle. I stopped using meth for a short time and got married. She had a 2-year-old daughter and together we had 2 more children. You would think that was a good enough reason for any man to stop using, dealing, and transporting drugs, but it wasn’t. This marriage lasted for 15 years. I was able to pull it back together just for a while and the Lord blessed me with full custody of my children. Then my selfishness, pride, and bitterness took over and I was back to the same bad behavior, but this time it was worse. I knew I was dying, but I was desperate for a change in my life. I was crying out to Jesus and running from Him at the same time. Praise the Lord, I have a great home church family, community and brothers and a sister that prayed continually for me and would not give up on me. God heard their prayers and at just the right time, my pastor’s wife was shopping, and the store owner started telling her about Freedom House and how she had seen first hand how the Lord had used this place to change her son in law’s life (John Van Loan). That 2-minute conversation turned into 2 hours. After she left, my sister happened to call her and the seed was planted. Now all the people who were praying for me began to pray for God to make a way for me to enter Freedom House. God heard their cry and answered their prayers. I was finally ready to get the help I so desperately needed so we were headed to Holcomb, Missouri. I know without a doubt that Jesus ordained that shopping trip, phone call and answered prayers. I never thought that drugs would end up stealing 28 years of my life when I tried them for the first time. I guess that’s what the devil would want you to think. Now I can say that Jesus has restored so much in my life. He is restoring the gifts that He gave me, and He is healing my heart-giving me the ability to love myself and others again. I’m alive today because God has plans for me. He took me out of my mess and put me in a place where He knew I would be loved by so many people and finally feel peace so that I could develop a real, lasting relationship with Him. I am excited for the chance to shine His light in my community and be able to tell others the Good News. “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, not to harm you and to give you a hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
My name is Casey Barker. I’m 45 years old from Jonesboro, Arkansas. I am an only child that grew up in a home where my parents loved me and provided for me. I went to church, I was active in school, sports, fishing and hunting, and I worked with my dad. My dad is a good man, but at times he would speak harshly to me and it affected my self esteem negatively. At the age of 12 my best friend was killed in an accident. I began trying to numb my pain with alcohol, sex, and drugs. I tried anything that made me feel good and helped me forget about my friend’s accident. That led me into addiction, depression, and eventually a suicide attempt with a gun. I survived the suicide attempt and found that I needed help with my life, but I didn’t know where to find it. I counseled with a pastor and found that I needed Jesus to help me. I went to a program in North Carolina and began a new path in life with Jesus in control. I learned that the Bible was God’s way of showing me how to deal with life properly. I gave my life to Jesus on November 9th, 2004. I got involved in church and celebrate recovery where I gave my testimony. I became a minister, married my best friend, and began doing mission work overseas. My life was the best it had ever been. I was sober for over 11 years, but life got tough again. Over time I relapsed and started drinking again. I eventually lost everything due to my addiction. I was at the end of my rope again and knew I needed help. I came to Freedom House in March of 2018. At Freedom House I found love, encouragement, and direction. Jesus is changing me and giving me strength, motivation, and purpose. Jesus has taken a lot of the problems I’ve struggled with and has taught me how to love others and myself. I have committed to follow His path and not mine, and to be the father and husband that He wants me to be. I stand on the scripture in 2nd Timothy 1:7 that says, “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” And Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Jesus has given me a new heart, is removing my character flaws, restoring my family, showing me how to love, filling me with confidence, and has given me a purpose. Today I walk boldly in Him.
My name is Bo Sandefur and I am 23 years old. I’m from a small town in the hills of Kentucky called Horse Branch. I grew up in a good family. We always went to church until I was 11 years old. At that time I fell out of a tree stand and I injured my back and was prescribed pain pills. That’s where my addiction began. In a very short time I learned how to synthesize methamphetamine and how to steal the ingredients for it, and I learned how to make moonshine and grow marijuana. I quit school at an early age and had plans to make meth, run moonshine, and grow Kentucky homegrown marijuana for the rest of my life. I fell further and further from God the more that I lived that lifestyle. I stopped going to church and I distanced myself from my family. I have had several DUI’s in my lifetime and some other charges but never anything too serious until I turned 18. When I was 18 years old I robbed a store while I was drunk and I didn’t remember any of it until I woke up with cigarettes all over my house and I did not know where they came from. I was charged with 3rd degree burglary and I had to do a program called drug court for those charges, but I was terminated from it and had to go serve a year locked up. After I served my time, I became very involved in manufacturing methamphetamine and I continued to grow marijuana. I started doing meth every day, and my life started to really spin out of control. For 11 years I led a life of violence and bad decisions and it wore me down spiritually, physically, and mentally. The last 3 years of my addiction were the worst. I wanted to quit, but I felt as if I wasn’t in a position to quit making meth. I cried out to the Lord that He would deliver me from my mess and the lifestyle I was living and He answered me in a way I thought He never would have. One day when I was working at my house, someone came by high on drugs and began hitting me in the head with a ball hitch. I stabbed him twice and I was arrested and charged with assault with a deadly weapon. The judge saw that it was self defense so he suggested that I go to a long term treatment center. I called Freedom House and was accepted into the program shortly after. Since I have been here Jesus has delivered me from the demonic influences that had their grip on my life and I stand on the scripture from John 10:10 that says, “The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy. I have come to give life and give it more abundantly.” I no longer feel alone or unwanted by God. Jesus answered my prayer by taking me out of my mess and bringing me to a place where I can seek Him for my problems.
My name is Cameron Collins. I’m 28 years old and I was born and raised in Mount Ida, AR. I have a brother that’s 2 years older than me and parents that got divorced when I was 4. I really don’t have many memories of them together. Both of my parents got remarried and my brother and I stayed with our aunt and uncle as well as my grandmothers. I was raised in church until I was about 14. At the age of 14 I started using drugs and my life started to go downhill really fast. I started missing a lot of school as I tried every drug I could find. By the time I was 16 I dropped out of school and started using a needle to inject my drugs. When I started using the needle I lost all of my self respect as well as my respect for others. I would do anything to anyone just to get drugs. When I was 18 I got into a bad car wreck and they gave me pain pills. After doing all my drugs the pain pills had little effect, but after a couple of months of surgeries I found myself addicted to the pain pills as well. By this time the drugs were making me very paranoid, so I stopped taking everything except the pain killers. Now my life revolved around pain killers and I grew worse and worse. I was 25 when I caught my first felony and I was sentenced to 6 months at an Adult Correctional Facility. It was one of the best things that happened to me. I was in a one man cell with nothing but a Bible so I opened it and started reading. For the first time the Bible was real to me. After getting out of isolation I got into a Christian program in prison and I spent 6 months there. I got out of prison and 2 months later I started using drugs again because I stopped reading my Word and started hanging out with old friends. I came to the end of myself again and checked into Grace MBTC and spent 5 months there. I took my eyes off of Jesus and left the mission. It wasn’t long after and I got high again, but this time my life seemed so much darker than before. I was using and selling a lot of drugs, and I had some connections with some very bad people and the law had their eyes on me and watched everything I was doing. After Jesus took everything I had I found my way to Freedom House MBTC where I’ve been now for 7 months. This is one of the best things I’ve ever done in life. Now that I’m in the Lord’s will I have a peace that I haven’t had since I was 14. My favorite scripture is in John chapter 14 verse 27. It says, “I leave the gift of peace with you-my peace. Not the kind of fragile peace given by the world, but my perfect peace. Don’t fear or be troubled in your hearts- instead be courageous!” It reminds me that all I ever wanted was Jesus’ perfect peace.